Tuesday, December 22, 2009

I miss you <3

Dear Alex,

I miss you. I know I have been an asshole such a bad friend lately, I can't help it. I am sorry. I know I do not deserve your forgiveness, I am asking for one anyway. I am sorry. :( I know I am a bad, lousy friend. I have no excuse (or the excuses I give is not even deserving of your forgiveness). How horrible have I been? Very.

This is not written on here just because, I am truly sorry. Sorry I have not called. Sorry I have not text-ed (actually I have not reload my phone for a whole month! Believe it?!). Sorry I have not facebook-ed you. Sorry I have not said "HI" on Yahoo!. Sorry I have not sent an e-mail on gmail. I am just sorry. I know very well you don't have to forgive my pity ass, I deserve that. I just want you to know I am sorry.

As of late, I have been spending time in class...with people I call friends. I had a blast. Had spend less time (than normal with the bf too), sleeping early, going to class early...getting home late. And confession: we have been playing UNO! I know...lame. But it's true. I have been going to sleep early, leaving my blinking Yahoo!messenger tab to the silence of the dark night. All alone. The bf talking to himself. How horrible am I?

I. AM. Horrible. *cries at the corner* But I deserve all the evil stares, all the spit of fire from my friends, you especially. I have been reckless. I have been crazy playing Mafia Wars on Facebook rather than spend time with people I love, who love me. :( I am ashamed. (But so you know I am still playing Mafia Wars.)

So this post is dedicated to you. In the hope that you will read it. I am sorry, I truly am.

Forgive me?